Thursday, March 22, 2018

WEEK 93 part 2 - EMOTIONS - It's coming to an end

This was a crazy one!!  For all you Mom's that want to know when you receive the return flight information, it's around 70 days left in the mission.

So two weeks ago on a pday we received an email with Bryce's return date, flight information, and all those great things.  We were ecstatic! I called the girls into my bedroom and Dad was there and we had this big celebration of knowing the exact return details.  The email was carbon copied to Bryce, Dad, Mom, Bishop, and Stake President.  We were so excited and full of joyful emotion!  Our loved one had a return date.

THEN.....later that day we received the pday email.  Apparently Bryce had received a phone call the Friday prior and was told his return date and told he would have an itinerary emailed to him.  He was waiting to surprise us with the news except we received the email before he did.  So that didn't work out so well.  He opened his email to see his flight information, his tickets, his date to leave the mission......and.....he was devastated.  We soon realized our joy was not his joy.  We don't talk about home or return with him so I never really knew how he felt about it but it became very clear on this day.  He does not want to come home.  He is lost in the service of the mission, loves his companion, loves the work, loves the people of  Mexico, and the last thing he wants is for any of it to end.  Although he is so sad, this was the most joyful news a mother could hear. He is truly in love with what he is doing and has truly converted to being a missionary.

He speaks English but in Spanish format.  He said, "This is all so shocking to me, it's real and the tickets are purchased.  This is really happening, Holy Cow.  I really have to come home. This has all hit me a bit in the sadness.  that last sentence, oh my goodness the phrasing was so fun.

So after all that was established it got kind of odd. Every six weeks missionaries transfer into Mexico and missionaries transfer back to their homes. This is the cycle that continues on and on during the two year mission.  Bryce transferred in during a cycle and now he will transfer out at the end of a cycle.  Since Bryce was the first cycle in for his Mission President, this means he is the first missionary to have completed 2 years with President Montoya. His arrival was under different circumstances and his departure is following suit.  Sort of feels like a trend of his mission. He is the only missionary I know of that was the only North American of his generation. That changed many things for him.  For example, he didn't bond with fellow North Americans in the CCM, he didn't arrive into Chihuahua with a support base of people he was familiar with, etc. He doesn't have that group that so many are blessed with throughout their mission. Despite that, he's been an amazing trooper and fought hard when times were tough and has made amazing, amazing, life long friends. I'm sure it was all for a reason and he had to learn to depend on many and when to stand on his own.

His final words:  I've really changed so much.   In a lot of ways. I feel more mature and I'm able to handle stress better. I have a lot to do and time is moving to fast. I need to work fast and hard.  I'm not ready for it to end so I'm just not going to think about it.